Dear: my only one Chinese Hankyung hyung
Hankyung hyung, this is your GameKyu, your DraKyu, your KyuMong, and
your 小13 (Little 13) and recently adding two more nicks, so now you can
also call me as SlideKyu or DanceKyu.
How are you hyung? Do you eat well? You seem much thinner now compare to
the last time I saw you. Obviously you had been with us for more than 5
years already and nearly 10 years with another 11 hyungs since the
training time, so I guess you must be used to with our Korean food and
in a sudden you moved back to China, and yes everything is different
from here even just a little or else.
Hyung, have you seen our Bonamana yet? It’s very successful now, we have
owned 2 1st place prizes so far from Music Bank, we will have a big
success like what we’ve done before with “U”, “Don’t Don” and “Sorry
Sorry” too right? For me, those hit songs of us have different meaning.
First, “U”, the most important and meaningful to me, this is the debuted
song for me as a member of an amazing Korean idol boy band Super
Junior. When we were about to perform the ComeBack stage of “U”
everybody especially Teukie hyung told me not to worry, not to be very
nervous since I’ve been given a God Voice but I was still that way yet
then only one sentence could make me relief, it wasn’t from anyone but
you, Hankyung hyung. I still remember until now and will never forget it
even it’s been almost 4 years long already; do you remember what you
had said to me that time hyung? Every time we had to perform on stage,
“Don’t worry too much Kyu, don’t be nervous Kyu, I’m sure you can do it
without any worries. I totally understand how you feel right now just
like the first time I was here with the other 11 of us, and yes, in this
kind of condition, you’re even better than me since you’re Korean like
them, unlike me so be confident, Cho Kyuhyun fighting!” this long
sentence keeps popping out on my mind, keeps making me more confident,
keeps giving me more power, really, I really thank you hyung.
Then, 2Jib (2nd Album), we were successful again for our “Don’t Don”
honestly I don’t want to talk about this, I’m hurt every time thinking
about that situation, I really hate that time yet I also love that time
the most in the same time. I do remember it’s the hardest time ever in
the whole life time of mine. I almost gave up everything, almost put
everything down and went away but everything went contrast because of my
12 hyungs include you, you guys cheered me up, gave me another hope,
chance to continue fighting and finally, I did, not only me but us. We
did it with “Super Junior, Don’t Don – Come Back” and yes, we were all
white blond along with Sungmin hyung too. I, Kyuhyun thank so much to
the 12 of you, decided not leave me, decided to wait me no matter how
long it took and I’m really proud of myself that I could make Super
Junior stage which is a stage of 13 boys even I appeared only less than 1
minute long but this is how we call a “Super Junior Stage”
Later on, our 3Jib (3rd album) “Sorry Sorry” we made many hits, broke
many records and owned many prizes. I admitted that I was somehow a
little bit disappointed because there was only 12 just because of Kibum
hyung wants to focus on his acting career, we can’t stop him or what but
supporting him instead. You know, it’s not comfortable to see only 12
heads, 12 mics, 12 pairs of shoes, 12 sets of performance clothes and I
felt like I was forgotten since my number is 13, every time preparing to
go for a stage performance, Teukie hyung always count to make sure no
one missing or else, he started yelling out “1” and pointing to himself
then Heechul hyung with yelling “2” and so on until pointing at me but
yelling as “12” not “13”. But there was someone who helped me by a
sentence: “Kyu, no matter what, no matter when, no matter where, Super
Junior is always 13” and yes, just because of this sentence, I imagined
that Kibum hyung is always there, on the stage, sing and dance with us.
Do not wonder who said this; again he’s the one I’m missing much, called
Hankyung.
Moreover, Hankyung, Siwon, Donghae, Ryeowook and Kyuhyun were placed
into another sub-group along with ZhouMi and Henry called as Super
Junior under the leading of Hankyung. Just like Super Junior, Leader
Teukie hyung always shout: “we are Super Junior, 우리는 슈퍼주니어-예요
~~(u-ri-neun Syupeo Juni-OR~~)” and for Super Junior M, it is the same,
you, the leader always introduce us as: “大家好，我们是 Super Junior – M~~
(Hello everybody, we are Super Junior – M~~)” I miss this shout very
much.
Anyway, do you know you’re one of the group’s lead dancers? Do you know
what happen when you’re gone? I was replaced at your position in the
dance break, this is very difficult for me, I always hurt myself every
time practicing. It’s very unfamiliar when no seeing in the dance break
section. I miss your dance move, I miss you MJ tribute and I extremely
miss your unclear pronunciation when speaking Korean.
I can’t write anymore, my hand is trembling now, my letters are uglier
and uglier, hope you can understand and don’t wonder why this letter
seem to have spots of water, they are my tears, I cried along while
writing this, every moments of us are popped out in front of me like the
reality.
Okay, should be ended by this now, I have one more sentence to say
before saying good bye to you.
Hankyung hyung, do think and remember that, we are brothers from Leeteuk
to Kyuhyun since the time we’re called as a member of Super Junior,
just one word Super Junior will be enough for us to introduce ourselves,
you’re forever a part of Super Junior and will never be forgotten from
Super Junior no matter how you decided to do, no matter what you’re
going to do, we’ll support you with the love of our 12 hearts.
I feel you’re always beside me even we’re apart, just because of “SUPER
JUNIOR is ONE”
